Monday, May 26, 2008

Insert Blog Post Here

I know I've been neglecting the blog these past few days. It isn't as though I'm dealing with a dearth of material. There was a Motley Fool article last week that I intended to write about, and TFA sent me a nifty budget worksheet so I can begin planning my financial life for the next two years. I ought to be churning out posts by the dozens.

Instead, I'm struggling to find motivation. I've been crumbling a lot lately, getting weird and weepy and generally not coping with life as I should. There's a lot of crud going on, and I just don't know how to deal with it. Talking with certain people, like my brother or my friend S., provides surcease, but at the end of each day I'm left utterly alone with my darkest thoughts.

This will get better. I've been here often enough that I can semi-convincingly tell myself that the gloom will someday lift if I will only push on through life's routines for as many days, weeks, or months that this lasts this time. In a day or two, I'll force myself to start sorting out my finances, and there should be plenty of dull posts, but tonight I'm finding it very hard to care about the future.

5 comments:

stackingpennies said...

It is totally normal to feel this way now and then... but that doesn't make it any more fun.

I hope things turn up soon.

Fabulously Broke said...

Yes normal, but hopefully you'll feel better in no time..

I too, hope things turn up soon.

Ms. MiniDucky said...

I'm sorry you're going through this right now. If there's anything we can do, or blog, to help you out, or give you a smile, let us know!

teawithbuzz said...

Two things.

One, you are at a major transition stage in your life. Going from student to non-student, plus a major move, is a big deal and it is OK to have emotional ups and downs associated. You will get through it, and it won't necessarily be fun. Keep talking to people, and it is OK to whine on your blog too! It may even help!

Two, if this feeling continues beyond a couple months beyond transitions (i.e. after you start in your teaching position and are settled into an apartment), please see a doctor. A doctor can tell you the difference between "the blues" and clinical depression, and if it is clinical depression (speaking as one who has been there) there are fixes. Chemical imbalances in the brain can be corrected.

Let me know when you get settled into teaching and what your teaching assignment is (what courses and what levels) and I will send you some things.

You have support! It's OK to use it sometimes!

SF Money Musings said...

I'm feeling the exact same way the last few weeks - darkness and not knowing how to get out or when it'll get better. What does help is not being at home, alone in your thoughts, going to do something fun, cheap and free outside. Exercise helps too as does sometimes writing about it. hope things are better!